2 feb 2009happy chinese new year
wish all mine fren hab a great new year ahead!!!
happy bbdayy to my elene yeo darling!!
ops! i think i brk my promise say i will often update my dusty blog, but din not do it coz due to some reason & i reali hab no feelin to write any thing here. i think to ' bi men si guo ', to think wad went wrong & wad wrong wit it.
finally after cny fair le. got one ' qing song ' e feeel lahs. but another thing is not reali bear to end tis fair too. here again, is fun to working wit food dept staff. no stress, no pressure. but i stil same old miie. always key wrong code, den nid to trouble my senior to do those return lahs etc those thing. im reali so ' bu hao yi shi ' to him. p=
first day of e chinese new year went to my aunty. den sec day went to my grandma hse fer visting. omg!! der reali damn bored siiax. adult chattin among themselve n kids playing among themselve too. den left miie alone. sit at one corner msg-ing wit my frenx n anyhow think. until chu4, don wish to go one of my aunty hse. so meet my frenx go town watch movie shoppin. one trip to kinokuniya i got many book wanna buy siiax. omg!! at der my heart reali will stop siiax. hahahahs! but endup onli buy writer letter those kind of cute paper n one hot shot comic. actually wanna buy MIT xie zhen too e. but....... my jobless lahs. cant anyhow spend money oso.
say until jobless. e nxt day 30jan, i meet my malay frenx frm taka to vivo hunting fer job. endup we onli interview forever 21 n nike. hmm. i hab one feeling like don wish nike to cal miie siiax. coz wen we walk in interview riitex, all staff like something super big deal like tis lookin at us siiax. damn scary man. feelin so anti social man. forever 21 diff, gals der r frenxly to us n we juz fill up form onli. nid to wait fer calls. but one of my frenx say forever21 v hard to get coz their standard damn high. but i hab no choice lahs. taka din calls miee & i dono wanna work at dept ant. sound picky uhh. but some dept reali anti social lahs. mayb i try my luck outside hunting if reali don hab luck den try taka dept bahhs. i hope n wish reali hab one stable jobb soon!!!
ps: frenx out der passby my blog. pls pls help miie look out any job hab vancancy. let miie noe k!! i nid one job urgently!!
now is mid niite. v silent & mind is so awake. thinking through my prob. im weak n timid. hab one of e moment i hab thinking of run away frm probs in font of miie. even i say until ' tou tou shi dao ' but dat onli my mouth saying & i not doin it. dat moment i gif all sort of excuse n reason to myself, dat i can ignore dat probs, i wil solve it one days. trying to forget everything. but after i reali cool dwn n think wad happen juz start of 2009, im juz cheatting myself. i dislike dat kind of miie. i hate myself.
SORRY frenx. i hope my awake will not b too late. wad i nid to done n say i will do it soon as possible. mayb dats wont trouble u but it reali make miie cant slp well. every niite some qns appear at my mind. i will lie at my bed until reali no yi zhi to thinking anythin den i can fall a slp.
im feel sorry
i hate myself
whr goes wrong?
e incident or miie?
wad happen on miie?
whhy everything will happen tis way?
do i stil can hab frenx ard miie?
do i noe wad does real frenx mean?
wad shld i do
wad shld i do
wad shld i do
wad shld i do
in my mind keep on hab one voice asking miie n tellin miie.
i beri nu li to find out e ans. to gif u one ans too.
but pls gif miie more time. thing will settle soon!
thanks! )'=
frenx. i miss u lots.
missing those noisy u &
noisy miie!
waiting new rainbow to appear ....
storyy to b contiune ...
posted bby angel.
☆ posted by angel =D ☆4:30 AM.
飽滿的週末... :)
