short gateway?

on 21 THURS,
boyfriend dint manage to get to off, changed to fri.
life like nth, simple procedure
wokeup in e morning goes to work,
looking forward for knock off,
lastly reach home chatted with boyfriend SLEEP!
but one thing special, today is my first day of work! everything is stil okays but just PRESSuRE bahhs. :(

on 22 FRiDAY,
boyfriend off, I nvr get ease wen his off fall on wkday but it always does! =.="
stress at work but he enjoying at home do nth! kns~~~
boyfriend come fetched miie, as ask I asked hhim!
haiish! non is he wil auto come e.
mant time I told myself I shall stop asking, let hhim be auto but too bad! he won't!

we went to marina sq to meet hongsiang and choonhian.
chit chatting at starbucks another entertainment fer us!
iPhone game " KaRt RiDeR l"
we just simply crazy on it man!
cos we can play tgt and had fun tgt! :)

after e racing, went to bought ticket!
watched " wu xia ", is not reali nice.
in fact I fall a slp during e movie, I kinda fon uds wad thu acting oso. only noe Donny zen is a killer and he retired from e social and live in a farm life.

after shown is quite late alrdy, ders no train fer us to go back.
since preparing to take NR Liao, so we stay up late.
For e first time which is nt any celebration or anyone bird day but we are stil at town in so late hour.
hahhahahahhahs!

actually we did one thing v stupid,
but stil got ppl believe us! hahahahhah!
this is a joke of e week man!

on 23 SAT,
I no need to work but boyfriend needs,
lucky he work aftn or nt he surely nt enough slp as we went back hm nearly three this morning.

day time like normal,
slp whole day and play whole day iPhone.
night time, kamhoe suddenly called.
he planned to given xinee a surprise bird day,
is cool! and I felt so happy for xinee!
at least finally this guy rmb who's beside hhim alway!
but he a bit late and last min,
cake candle plate and fork all don have.
all is last min ask and buy, so like 沒誠意!

but anyway, xinee is happy and she is surprised by us so unexpected. :)

HAPPY BIRD-DAY to u xinee Yap!!

hope she gt a wonderful day on her bird day!

on MONDAY,
ytd I was damn moody!
is it Monday blues I nt so sure lahs,
just nt into anything, mayb is knowing I gonna be a telemarketer not happy bahhs.
i don like to tok on e phone with client,
felt so awkward on it.
bug job is job, I stil need to do in di end!
haiish! all the best for miie tml bahhs!

night time, boyfriend said he meeting friends at 136 but he always so last min.
I just simply hate to be lat last min,
actually we're kidding, he get back his medical claims frm company.
I just kidding on his fifty dollar, but wad make miie angry is his reaction nt e money!
I seriously telling hhim, I'm broke.
I left only five buck with miie, but his reaction make miie so angry.
this make miie reali so doubt, is he my boyfriend? do he reali love miie or just being tgt with miie cos he just to shut up his family member mouth? haiish!

thousand million of unhappy with hhim,
do he reali love miie at some point of time I reali v doubt on this!
I hate hhim to max at e same time, I love hhim!

whhy human are so 舉棋不定?
whhy human has love in it?
without love will it be better?

over tired! reach home i fall a slo fast, but today tue boyfriend needs to go back to re-service!

rotting at work~
hopping time could pass faster abit!






give in and out,
but wad if,
is have come to e limit of it?
:(

☆ posted by angel =D ☆8:29 PM.

words dat is unspoke.



sunday
a day tat i had rest at home fer whole day.
lazyness is bugging on miie, don wish to go away!

monday
finally willing to move my butt up from my seat
and do a big cleaning at home.
it had been age dat i has last clean my room
hahahahhaha!
threw away many things dat kept fer long time,
is time to threw all e past and replace it with future.
while packing i found many things dat i used cherish it alot.
but now turn rubbish to miie.

is it means something is gone meaning gone,
i shld not hopping it will be back and remind e cherish item i used to had?

sat night, bf and i went to loyang and pray.
on e way back, we had tok abt a topic dat i don wish to tok to..
he say some ppls don appreciated wad i have alrdy fork out,
den don bother and move on, make more new frenx den.
frenx is someone dat willing to make effort to spare their time to meet up and gather.
i uds wad he trying to say. but.. something is been years..
is not use say dat easy to be done.

i treasure and i hold on tight on wad im holding in my hand right now,
it been years im holding it, i don wish i don wan to let go just like this.
i had to admit dat i used to lost my balance in between it,
after all i found my way out le, i had learnt how to balance it.
but i doubt it too late, dat thingy alrdy trying so hard to escape from my tight hands,
this make miie don wish to let go oso hard, i missing it.
i recalled e feeling while it stil on my hand, but...
i guess it nvr gig back to e past.


i have to move on, yes i will.
i will nvr stop on e same point fer long,
even tot i don wish to but i have to.
this is wad called life,
a life dat no time fer u to stop and remind e same,
surrounding things, environment and human being,
is changing and keep on replacing e new life on it.

if world time allows i wish to slow down my steps,
view and felt wad is had been my surrounding fer my 21 years of life.

i wish to go out and take a look at e at e big wide worlds have been in this earth fer so many many many years... life's end and reborn a new life.

感叹完毕!
感叹到此就好, 多余的就....
吞进我的胃吧!








不小心受伤了,
看了医生了,
也好很多了.
=(










人生苦短,不该一直往坏的想吧!
=)

☆ posted by angel =D ☆10:59 PM.

stories..

wed is a busy day fer miie, rush here and der.
just to settle my job and agency thingy.
morning after meeting e agent i gonna work with,
after meeting her i rush down to raffle place and meet my agency.
settle all thingy, go back home and rest.
go out to singapore shopping and meet my agent,
and sign new job contact.

e moment i walk in to e office,
i don feel like im on loading..
got a feeling like, " i don wan to work here, i rather stay at GE "
mayb i did a wrong choice again!
mayb im not, is just dat im not use to it.

one thing is not wad i think,
well~! instead of having my own table, i will be sitting my agent table.
new rules is too many and over.
not freedom at all, mayb is just appearance fer ppl to see.
seeing those rules alrdy miie so uncomfortable le man,
haiish! human uhh human!
never get satisfy with wad thy alrd plan to have with or alrdy have.

okays! new job DONE!

LOADING~!!!!

thurs tiring day!
went in to msia with bf,
tot of visiting his cousin and buying some daily stuff..
i dono isit his cousin dog maomao is too emo alrdy
or i alrdy use to maomao alrdy..
i dare to touch hhim and sayang hhim without anyone help to clam hhim down..
hahahhaha! i dono whr get those brave,
he uhh. i dono this is it his good point or wad
friend and family member said wad,
he just wanna follow and do.
asked by his cousin to play pool,
but he LOSE 50RM JUST FER POOLING.
50rm i can buy so much thingy mahs.
wad a wasted! but yet he stil can say is okay lah.
just fer fun etc....!!!!

fri had a great rest at home!
but stil... night time so AWAKE, day time so SLPY!
even tot im working mode on.
haiish! wad happen to miie?
wad my bloody mind is thinking again?

sat had a beautiful days with xinee and mili!
went to marina sq and eat and watch firework.
xinee sometime wanna say her stupid but she is not,
say her blur like sotong but she is worst den dat..
hahahaha! but overall she is cute and joke of e day.
so coincidence dat choon and jermery is at der oso.
meet up tgt and we walk ard at marina sq,
i doubt choon is reali not enough slp till...
he keep shooting ppl, shoot finish jermey after is xinee den is miie.
KNS hhim~ hahhahaha!


time getting close, we went to open spare and sit dwn on e ground
we start to chichatting and waiting fer firework to start.
50% firework is so nice alrdy, i cant imagine how nice is 100%
after dat went to starbuck and sit down and chit chat again.
while im waiting fer my bf to knock off and go loyang.

he was not in a gd mood today,
i just don uds whhy need to worry abt sale wen u're not a sup or manager?
mayb is commission he wan to earn but reali got no ppl
wad u wan to do lehs? whhy putting all e prob on own shoulder?
making yourself so tired.
i reali don uds he is too kind or stupid to say.
haiish! i cant say much oso,
this is his job and character, i doubt no one can stop hhim to think this way.
i noe i cant, i don have e power.
who has?

finally get to jailbreak my iphone,
im so happy!
i changed theme, silder and FONT!!
but i dint DL any games and play.
wad a waster to jailbreak wen u don use e apps often.

anyway, came back frm some chilled out with
choonhian, hongsiang and kamhoe at bf hse downstair.
and bf is slp-ing so SOUNDLY TILL SNORE SO LOUDLY!
and he alrd occupy e whole bed.
i guess, i gonna slp on e floor tonight!
=,="








有因就有果, 有善就有恶
世界上没有完美的人
没有你想 要的朋友!

☆ posted by angel =D ☆3:46 AM.

真得很倒霉啊！


really so unlucky till i can cry man.!!!
first day
i tot of update my iphone ver but whose noe!!
my CONTACT GONE!!!!

second day
i tot try to restore my phone no
but !!! this time round my phone whole thingy i CANT USED!!!!!!!

reali so gan chiong lehs!
got no phone use, somemore next day i need to go so many places!
without phone im so uneasy man!!!

i think if one day whole world der no more handphone,
i will bored till death man!!
i reali so.. lost wen my hp is not working and not with miie somemore siiax.

i dono wad say abt this thingy lehs..
bf went to meet his " ex admire ",
but one thing is i was der..
lolsh! dono how to express oso.
mayb is nth lahs, i think much oso..

i oso noe her, mayb i shld not think so much le.
anyway her dog cookie is so cute.
e dog she having is one of my choices dat i wan.
so cute and obedient man..

is gonna become 100% loading done,
i think i got a little bit...
feeling so uneasy abt it?
LOSLH!

need to use to new environment le.
hopefully evrything is good and steady bahhs.
=((





希望好运能快点来 把厄运快点赶走。
=)))

☆ posted by angel =D ☆11:10 PM.

又吵了。。


many times i told myself, this rs is not reali belong to mie.
if time up i shld let go, i shld take out my brave and end it.
history is alrdy history, shld not repeat it.

haiish. fer this past one year plus rs,
evryday i was holding " our rs might time up anytime, cherish evry moment and rmb it"
bring this kind of tot walking thru evryday nearly one year plus le.
i very cherish this r/s but do he?

sometime i reali doubt my place at his heart,
how to say in e first place is i voice e feeling first...
will this effect e r/s value?
haiish!

tot of breaking up is not don have,
i do have this tot many times.
thinking isit is time to set us free from this pain,
but wen this words out, his hand hold it tight.
don let miie go, be frank
im happy he can say he cant live without miie,
and don wish to leave miie.
but ...
i dono isit a wrong decision to stay?

had a big argument again..
but he just don uds wad i wan and i reali don uds wad he wan too.
mayb our mindset is so not match..

有句话说；“ 重色轻友”
可是对他而言，是重友轻色！

i just wanna chat more with hhim,
but he choose to tok to his friends den miie.
make miie so angry is,
he don think this is a issues.

his weird mindset make miie so unacceptable sometimes.
everyone known hhim as a gd kind heart person,
faithful to his loves one. he wont betray any his loves one.
holding this kind of "title" from others,
make miie so pressure and stress sometime.

others dono wad happen in inner but one straight tot will b miie making nonsens again
if theres no issue dat make miie speak it,
i will make so much noise?
i just wanna voice my stand, make hhim uds..
he so stubborn, his attitude is not as gd as evryone tot.
he will only good to his frenx but not miie.

i noe how to gif in oso,
but i gif in le den...
effort not appreciated..
haiish.

sometime i just wish to be small women behind hhim,
someone can dote miie, and protect miie.
my thinking is wrong?

sweet time can be so sweet,
will disappointed and be reali down to bottom.

i don wish to act sweet infont of anyone,
sweet is sweet,
angry is angry.

i did all my best to maintain this r/s
i reali hope ders a happy ending as wad i wish..

will enter a marriage, no one noe.
but i hope we can..











世界上的缘分是很难预料的，
是你的就是你的，不是勉强是不会留住缘分的。

☆ posted by angel =D ☆3:05 AM.

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☆ posted by angel =D ☆3:49 AM.

☆ posted by angel =D ☆1:11 AM.

☆ posted by angel =D ☆2:00 AM.

i ever said things stay in constant sometime is reali a best choice.

constant status is reali happy & close.

human tend to b v greedy over smth thy reali insist on it.

i admit im greedy on it, asking fer more.

just hopping thing will went thru wad i tot so.

but i alway forgotten e moment i think im happiness

something will just snatch it away from miie,

idk issit smth my heart is telling miie fake alarm or wad.

but... i just reali hope..

this time, please heard miie.

i need my guardian angel at my side..

i need strength to hang on.

i stay & keep gig on is become u're der, if u leaving wad about miie?

contiune go on? without u?

without u i reali dono hw to carry on,

i hang till now with all my anger, pressure & unhappyness

is just becos of u..

now how im gonna to do?

can everything b smooth just fer tis time round fer miie?

haiish!

☆ posted by angel =D ☆2:09 AM.

☆ posted by angel =D ☆2:35 AM.

10 april 2010

☆ posted by angel =D ☆1:16 AM.

HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO MY LOVER ( JO TOH )

sooooo sorrrrrry, i MIA ffrm my own world again.
forgive miie once again, too busy
with study, work n emotional story gig on.

but im back to blog,
cos i stil feel tis is e onli place,
dat alway can b myself.

near two month im not here already,
too much thing to share n say out.
i dono how im gig to start,
but just roughly roughly wen tthru bahhs.

i annouced im no long at taka le, finally quited.
i alway say wanna do so, but endup i stil der fer nearly 2 years.
wows! dats not short, full of memories at der.
all my beloved fellow alway bring miie joke & story all ard.
im happy working dwn der at takashima s.c

THANKS FELLOW MAKE MY DAY AT TAKA IS BRIGHT N CHEERFUL.

a few wk later, i joined demarco.
keehao company, edwin ex company.
b4 i join i heard quite numb of story already.
just i haven't met e thing yet, wen i met it. i reali shock & uds.

first few days at vivo tangs, boring.
inside counter nobody wen outside ders fair gig on.
but outside life not dat goood too.
i v stress-ed out.
i scare i cant did it well enough.
i scare i will bring bad representation to my bro.
too many things i nid to b careful on.

after vivo is cwp. happen many things too.
too much to name, just roughly went thru,
noe new frenx, can handle quite well on e luggage stuffy alrdy.
alot of things change too.

i alway tot my heart issit spoilted.
why i cant heart beating voice.
wen i finally heard it, i hope it can b e right per i wanted.

smth dat it suppose impossible willl happen,
but now is just happen unknowly n sudden.
i oso uds it might not shld or shld not.
e thingy is more to yrself.

feeling alway come n go, we got no way to catch it.
make miie fear is illusion feeling.



=(((

☆ posted by angel =D ☆1:43 AM.

freaking vexes.
freaking stress.
freaking emo.
freaking sad.
freaking lost!

this is all her feeling.
she always tot no one can ever try to noe her damn well,
cos she will run away frm them, she will scared thy noe her too well,
but end-up stil don reali noe wad she thinking.
she now finally think she nid to change tis maybe stupid thinking.

someone noe her well at least can uds her more,
without any explanation frm her.

she suddenly rmb actually she stil a gal,
a weak little gal which hope sometime
can no nid to b strong and just shown herself out.

sometime things is too simple yet she cant get,
sometime she just tot of someone could given her...

a warm care & concern
a warm worry msg
a warm hug
a warm hand
to held her hand out frm e freeze.

she has a simple hopes but e task alway cant b done.
she just hope someone she care can reali uds her.

now she wants to hide herself up,
who could find her?
who could lead her to bright path?

sometime she just hope anyone could tell her
" hey, i noe u're not alright. don act le, just shown yrself out. "
just once. she will break dwn.
reali break dwn on e spot.
mayb dat a way to stop her?
no one noes.

things don't just look at a appearancce,
she might having fun with u guys,
but u wont noe, wen she reach home.
how she feel....
she can b just a shell,
without a soul inside her.
she can be trapped inside a dark dark space.

angel is just a gal,
don look too up on her,
she not a strong at all.

='(

☆ posted by angel =D ☆3:53 AM.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

oppps! i think i too long dint update my blogg le.
forgives miie cos i too busy with my cny celebration
and happening story gig on.
=DD

im back to blog..
at first i tot tis yr will b a boring newyear.
but now story turn diff wen diff thing is happening.
=DD

how happening, can tke a look at my fb.
i upload all e photo der.
photo might cant tell anything but den..
is reali FUN!

those 5-6 day i end my day with tired n happy smile.
=DD

thanks fellow frenx & two brother!
let my chinese new year hab a dif happening story!

new year is ending but
don end yr happening story..
=DD

☆ posted by angel =D ☆1:08 AM.

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with love ☆
S I M P L E angel